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Lonely City Girl : 孤独な少女 [userpic]

夜は眠らない

February 28th, 2011 (09:38 pm)
nostalgic

Current Mood: Silent
Current Music: Bob James : You're Right As Rain




When the comments are turned off I don't want any.
Not here, and not when you see me.
These are my feelings. They don't need commentary or correcting.

Lonely City Girl : 孤独な少女 [userpic]

Does 'W' stand for Withdrawl, or Wrong choice?

February 27th, 2008 (09:26 pm)
nervous

Current Mood: nervous

It's funny how much my parents' support effects my willpower.

As everyone knows, I got pretty sick recently, and as a result I ended up skipping a week of classes to stay home and recover. By that Friday I was feeling that I could probably make it through the day if I went to school, so I was really wavering between going and staying home. The reason I wanted to stay home, aside from general laziness, is that it seems every time I get really sick but start to feel better, if I get up and go out, it gets even worse. But even still, it felt like I should really go to school...

Anyway, I asked Mom and she told me that it was okay to stay home, and I could literally feel the stress washing away when she said it. I don't know why, but when Mom says it's okay, it's okay. If the apocalypse came, and my mom said, "It'll be fine," I'd believe her.

The point of this is, and it's fairly important if you're actually interested in my life, that my Dad has the same influence. And...tonight when I was talking to him on the phone, I tentatively mentioned I was thinking of dropping out of school to go find a job for a while. I was expecting him to be against it, I think, because every time I bring up the idea to people, everyone seems a little unsure about it, and as sad as it may sound, I rely on other people's enthusiasm and support to go through with an idea. Maybe I'm not sure of myself, but even still, that's how it is.

But he was very supportive of the idea.

And almost instantly, I feel like a weight has come off my shoulders.

Of course I need to talk about it with Mom seriously, but...just knowing that my dad said it's okay, I can feel that the idea is okay. It's like with a few simple words, my parents pull me up off the floor and hold me up so I can see over the walls of the maze.

But yeah...so here's my proposal:

Should I drop out of school, at least for a year or so, and go find a job in Japan?

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